Hi, I’ve never written on here. I have browsed many of the posts on Tiny Buddha before, over the last year or so. Mainly articles about self love as a I feel as if I lack that in my life.

A couple of months ago I started seeing a guy. And we get on well when we’re together and have seen each other most weeks since we met.

However, I don’t like how the relationship is making me feel about myself. Sometimes he takes a while to reply and I worry if he isn’t interested. I’ve ready many posts putting yourself out there and acting on how you feel but I’ve gotten upset and cried many times over how I feel about this guy, despite that fact that we’ve only known each other for just under three months.

Today I bumped into him in the street, and when I saw him. It wasn’t excitement or anything. I felt flustered and lied to him about exactly what I was doing. I wasn’t doing anything odd really, I was walking my friend to her bus stop. But I told him that I was staying out to make myself seem more interesting or something, I’m not really sure. I’ve not had many ex’s, but when I tried to search up similar stories of people feeling like this, all of the articles were about bumping into an ex, not a current partner.

I feel like I get worried or upset when he doesn’t reply to my messages and or whatever. However I feel like it’s too in the relationship to bring these issues up to him. I know a lot of time people say things like ‘tell your partner you wish they would communicate better’ or things similar but I feel like I should be with someone who just wants to talk to me a lot in the first place.

I think a lot of my issues come from insecurities within myself or a lack of self love. As I previously said, even before dating him I’ve found myself on this website quite a bit and I thought I was over some of them but I think I’m wrong.

I’m not sure exactly what advice I’m looking for, but I’m thinking of calling it off with him soon and trying to focus on feeling better about myself. Do you think that would be the right call?

Whether or not I do call it off, I want to start feeling better about myself and my relationships. I’ve noticed my self talk regarding the relationship is rather negative. Thinking things such as ‘you’re boring, no wonder he’d want to talk to you’ and whatever.

I’ve also read a lot about self esteem and confidence and how thinking about things your proud of helps , and I have a lot to be proud of I think. But it still doesn’t help that I sometimes feel really horrible about this relationship, and I think it stems from inner feelings about myself. I’m just not sure where to start when it comes to feeling better about myself.

There’s a lot in there I know, and a couple of questions but I think more than anything I needed to vent.