Hi Lisa,

From what you have explained with your experience and thought patterns, this definitely can be anxiety and I’m glad that you’re waiting for an appointment with a therapist.  I didn’t get help for my anxiety either until I was in my late 20’s, so I understand and can relate that what you mean about feeling like you have lived a very long life.

I’m sorry to hear about what happened with your “date” recently and how this kicked up extra anxiety for you.  It does not sound like he treated you with kindness nor respect and your body and mind reacted accordingly.  It makes sense that you are having a lot of racing thoughts and confusion because he told you one thing, but then he acts another way.  Perhaps it would be best to take a break from talking to him for the time being until you are able to see a therapist and start working through your anxiety.

Especially right now if you can’t determine what is reality and what is thoughts, it won’t help much more to see him again tomorrow.  A therapist will help you dive into things further and be able to see things much more clearly.  Might be a good idea to get some space in the meantime and see if your thoughts clear up.

Does this help?  I hope you are feeling better about this today!

Amy