Hi, I’m Henny. I feel messy and so sad right now. Me and my boyfriend have been 1,5 years in long-distance relationship.  I have just visited him in USA and stayed there for 5 months. I met his parents and friends, then he planned to visit me and see my parents. Thing turned so bad when I came back from USA 1 months ago. We usually fight because of my insecurity. I miss him a lot since I am just apart from him. I feel all my guts squeeze together and feel pain when I miss him. One day I told him I cannot continue this long-distance relationship.  I told him that ” is it more convenient for you if you find someone there who is closer to you? ” I feel I was so stupid because I did not mean that just my insecurity control all my mind. I do want to be with him and love him so much. He is so important to me. After that, he comforted me and said we did really well in this relationship. I kept crying and made him tired. He wanted to sleep and he said maybe he will think about what I told him if this relationship makes me suffer and pain. I feel my heart broke when I heard that. Then I ask him is it true. He said he rather than not but if it is good for both then he considers it. We argued, he said he will call me tomorrow. However, I forced him to answer my questions are: “does he still love me and does he really want to find someone there”.  Since I was pressing on him, he just so frustrated and he asked me to take a break. I didn’t agree because I said taking a break just like break up to me. He said then we just break up. I cried and told him I just didn’t mean it. I asked him to give us chance, I’m just so insecure. He seems really strongminded about it. After that he said he will give us chance, just let him rest for 2 days and we will figure things out. It has been 2 days. Today he told me that he needs more time to rest and figure it out since his health screwed up because of the fight. When I msg him, he still kindly replied me and told me to sleep early. I don’t know what should I do now. I feel panic and anxious. I know I’m childish. Its just because I want to be with him so bad. Does he really want to break up with me or he just needs time to rest and recover? I know he still loves me. I have learned a lot from my mistake and I will not make it again. I appreciate any help and advice. Thank you so much.