Hannah,

It sounds like you are dealing with a lot of things that are weighing you down.

I am curious what practices are you doing in order to address them?

Job: your low estimation of your skills and abilities

Analyze: picking things apart, thinking..thinking..thinking

Eating: overeating bad food

Finances: being in debt

Romantic Relationships: being with the wrong person

Family: dad kicking you out. mum dying.

All those sound challenging to deal with. No wonder that you are not feeling at peace.

Are you doing things that nurture yourself spiritually, emotionally, physically?

Mark