Hello Mark,

My plan now is to find a job online tomorrow, then go to the library on saturday to start writing the application. Maybe if I write this down here it will help?

I think you’re right about the flatmate. I took things too personally. Maybe it had nothing to do with me. Sometimes I get angry over little things and my thoughts just go crazy. I overreact, I become whiny and I want to hurt myself, destroy myself… Nothing really serious happened, I didn’t say anything mean or really do anything to her, but maybe I was passive aggressive and whiny.

Speaking to her could be a good idea, but I don’t know if I can bring up the courage. I also don’t know if she would be interested in this… Maybe I could try to clear things up and explain myself? Say something like “I’m sorry if I acted weird lately. When you didn’t say hello back I was a bit taken aback and maybe took things too personally.” Or would that be weird? I’m also still not sure if I’m courageous enough to try that.

The easier option would be to just leave her alone, which is my instinct. Right now I feel like I want to hide and not see anyone from the dormitory. Maybe after a while things will get back to normal.

Interactions with other people are also a problem for me that I need to work on. I worry way too much about what other people think!

My therapist also suggested to try group therapy – a horrifying idea, but maybe it could help. I guess it’s time to do some uncomfortable things. But maybe find the job first.

Thanks for your advice again.

Lily