Hello!

So, I recently turned 18 years old, and I have been thinking a lot about my life. I have been trying to figure myself out emotionally, because I have numerous problems with myself that I can’t seem to find solutions to. I grew up with a lot of emotional distress at home and at school, which I would like to think has given me a lot of wisdom towards life. However, while I can analyze the lives of others and offer advice and help to almost anyone, I can’t do it for myself. I have a problem with committing myself to things. Most obviously, I am overweight for my age (nearly 50 pounds), and everytime I try to diet, I end up failing within a month of starting. Likewise, I feel as if I don’t belong anywhere, even though I have a great social life and interact with many people throughout the day. I often can’t find the motivation to do simple menial tasks, such as applying my daily acne medication. I recognize this as a problem, but, I seemingly can’t fix it. I wonder where my motivation has gone, and why when I do get it back, I can’t keep it for more than a few days. I question the purpose of life often, but I don’t think I am depressed. I just…can’t fix myself, and I can’t figure out what is holding me back. If anyone has any sort of similar situation experiences and wisdom to share, please let me know. I feel lost a lot of the time, because I have no one that I want to bring these issues up to. I hate portraying myself as weak, but, I want to hear from the community here.