So, I recently turned 18 years old, and I have been thinking a lot about my life. I have been trying to figure myself out emotionally, because I have numerous problems with myself that I can’t seem to find solutions to. I grew up with a lot of emotional distress at home and at school, which I would like to think has given me a lot of wisdom towards life. However, while I can analyze the lives of others and offer advice and help to almost anyone, I can’t do it for myself.I have a problem with committing myself to things. Most obviously, I am overweight for my age (nearly 50 pounds), and everytime I try to diet, I end up failing within a month of starting. Likewise, I feel as if I don’t belong anywhere, even though I have a great social life and interact with many people throughout the day. I often can’t find the motivation to do simple menial tasks, such as applying my daily acne medication. I recognize this as a problem, but, I seemingly can’t fix it. I wonder where my motivation has gone, and why when I do get it back, I can’t keep it for more than a few days. I question the purpose of life often, but I don’t think I am depressed. I just…can’t fix myself, and I can’t figure out what is holding me back. If anyone has any sort of similar situation experiences and wisdom to share, please let me know. I feel lost a lot of the time, because I have no one that I want to bring these issues up to. I hate portraying myself as weak, but, I want to hear from the community here.
I believe in living my life holistically. Until I address my emotionally state then it is hard to make changes in diet, etc.
You say you have had emotional distress. How are you dealing with that? Exercise? Meditation? Therapy?
You say you are not depressed but you don't have motivation to do simple, menial tasks. I would get yourself evaluated psychologically and physically. It seems like your weight issue may be tied into that.
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