Dear Anita

Yes i guess, i am scared after all this self care and love and healing i have done to get to the good mental state i am in now it will all blow up in my face. The fact that i will need the strength to say NO to something that i know may be detrimental to my mental health. I say this because i am scared that his application may not go through and i ll have to wait for another year and go back.. i cant do it, i know i will crumble and go back to being depressed.

Blessings