Dear John:

In your last post you wrote: “there was  just  something about her that just feels like it was  my missing piece all these years”-

I believe  that  the clarity that you need (very confused is in the title  of  your thread) is in seeing that missing piece. See that  missing piece within yourself and  this great,  once-in-a-lifetime love story will lose its intensity. You will gain clarity and calm.

That  is, if  you are  interested in calm (there is something  attractive about passion and  yearning and  desperation..?)

What  is that  missing piece? This is  my question.

anita

I don’t know what it was, just feels like she completed me.  Kind of hard to explain.  I didn’t know I wasn’t complete until after i met her.  I was happy before her.  But after we met, I was really happy.  I smiled everyday.  Couldn’t wait to get my day started and be productive.   I just can’t explain it.  Obviously when the left me i was devastated.  I feel into a bad depression.  Luckily that only lasted about 3 months.  There are still days when i think about her and i do get a little down.  I was thinking about it last night some.  Part of this that really sucks is that for the majority of the time we were together, there seemed to always be some drama and baggage in her life.  We pushed through a lot of it together, but there was always something.  I was patient and understanding and waiting for the day that those issues were resolved, so we could really enjoy each other and be a bigger part of each other’s lives.  Well 6 months after we break up, Her issues with her boys are gone, Work issues have resolved themselves, she had health problems that have been taken care of, her financial situation has gotten better, and she has been able to get out more often and do more things socially.  All of this I encouraged and was waiting for when we were together.  Very tough.  It’s like i see this butterfly come out of the cocoon finally.  and now it’s flown away 🙁    I don’t know what to think anymore.  I’m not obsessing on her, I just know what i feel.   and how i feel.  I don’t think that will ever go away.