I talked to my mom about it today and felt better afterwards.

I am still in denial that this could happen so suddenly because for my birthday he gave me a beautiful card with his own thoughts on it. He has been talking about how he is streaming lining the office and selling things so he can consolidate so he can come here more often. That was one of our last conversations. I guess that is why it is so hard to believe it but I def have entertained it.