Chantel,

I know i deserve to be loved and i know in my heart that the things that i am asking for im sure most woman want even men. So if i know this why is it so hard to walk away from him. Why is the love i have for him and my want for him strong than my worth for myself? and how to get i get to a place where i can let go with out feeling like im completely breaking. 

Those words strike me as a woman who does not feel worthy.  Your use of the phrase “completely breaking” implies to me that you don’t quite have the wherewithal to be your own person.  Your statement of how you are not valuing your own self worth also reinforces my impression that you are dependent on him more than loving yourself.

I recommend that you look at your life with your two children.  What is best for you and them?  Probably not with someone who does not want to be with them and have his own bio children.  This is the reality.  Answer those questions and determine for yourself what is the answer.

I recommend a therapist for they are helpful in guiding you to your own inner wisdom and seeing the truth.

Mark