The other topic I started was about a thanksgiving that she was hosting and I was initially supposed to be a part of. It was bare bones in comparison to what it was going to be. Originally the plan was her mother, my parents, her and I, two of her cousins, and our friends. It was just the cousin who lives with her, her, her mother and 2 of our friends who felt obligated to go, considering they don’t like the way my ex has been behaving and they don’t like her cousin/roommate, and left earlier than they were supposed to. I saw some posts from there yesterday, not from my ex but from our friends, and it seemed like they were having some fun, and it made me sad. I talked to that friend this morning who said it went “fine”, but my ex and her cousin bickered a lot. I was sad all day yesterday and spent more time than I should wondering if they missed me at all. My friend said they did miss me, but I don’t know if my ex missed me yesterday like I missed her, and that drives me nuts. I know she’s putting on such a strong front to the world right now to make sure she doesn’t have to face these feelings. Or is she really just completely over me? Does she not miss me because she’s over me, or are the feelings so strong that she doesn’t want to break down and talk about them because it would hurt?