was sad this am.  had a relapse of when i was with her.  I was waiting for my phone to go off with her texting me like when we were together.  How weird is that.  It is something how these emotions and thoughts come and go.  I don’t know if i will ever really fully understand why i’m like this.  It sucks though.  some days it’s hard to push through.  It’s hard to not think about her and what we had.  It’s so confusing to me how one person could make me feel so happy all the time.  How one text from her just saying I Love You would make my whole day.