Michelle,

Thank you so much for saying that I’m taking the harder but better road. Gosh, I would not have thought that at all.I think I’m barely struggling along and that life is happening ‘to me’ as opposed to me proactively doing anything.

Being friends with him is absolutely not an option for me. It is already killing me to conjure up images of him moving on in my head, I don’t think I want to be front and centre to witness it. I definitely do use rose coloured glasses when looking back on the relationship but when I rationally make myself think of the flaws, it’s like they wash over me without touching me deeply really.

Thanks so much for your ongoing support here, it really keeps me afloat.

@kkasxo I hope you’re doing okay.