Dear Mich:
It is difficult to be troubled and not talk to someone about it, so you talked to a friend, that is understandable. I hope she doesn’t gossip, doesn’t share with others what you told her in private. If she does, don’t share anything personal with her again.
If you want to share your feelings and seek advice with no danger of gossip, you can do it right here, on your thread, anytime. Without identifying details you are safe here and I for one will be glad to read from you and reply.
anita