Let me say this, people use me in professional settings. Perhaps they enjoy a chance to reject someone. I find that people bully me. As someone who is unafraid to be myself I can understand that some people will be a hater – but it’s gotten to the point where I have 50% haters so I need a better way to manage/handle that. The big problem is that I find people do not value what I have to offer. If you are worth what someone will pay, I need them to pay attention. I have a very “enlightened” energy, which makes me experience a sense of transcendence, do they see something that transcends the physical world like money, and then think that the response is to not pay me? No matter what power I have to help people experience that, I deserve a living. The world owes me a living.

I’m done being used, I’m done with people taking out their aggression or bumping up their ego, my friends generally don’t fall into this trap, it’s more people that I don’t really know, so what’s my leverage in this situation to demand my worth