Dear Anita,

Thank you and I apologise for the late reply.

Yes, that is still a plan we talk about but I’m trying not to push too much since he started his new job. He doesn’t want me living in his country because their work ethic is excessive and there are some cultural differences. He really loves my country and he knows how he can live here but he needs to save money and think about the plan more. He is always sincere with his word (my mother thinks so too) but he always wants to take things at his own pace. So he’s not exactly a ‘doer’. If he says he will come and visit me, he will- it might just be at the end of the year. And I should’ve seen the signs because last year I kept saying ‘when you come here’ and he never once agreed or said he was going to. Since he already knew he was going to Bali and wouldn’t be able to afford another holiday. But this year he is back to saying how he’s looking forward to seeing me and my cats again and my family. So I know that is what’s on his mind.

In winter 2017 he came and visited me for over 1 month. For 1 month, we stayed with my family in my city and in a hotel in my city. Then for the final week, we visited another city. He left just before Christmas. In summer 2017 I went to his country and I stayed for 3 weeks. And that happened the year before too, except in 2016 he visited me both in summer and winter and stayed for Christmas. In 2015 he was supposed to come in the summer/winter but he waited because I told him to.

He told me just two nights ago that although he isn’t broke, he is saving more money to visit me comfortably as soon as possible. He doesn’t like doing things the cheap way and always wants the best quality. I kept telling him last year that my family is fine if he wanted to stay for the whole month at my house, but he thought it would be burdensome and rude for them and said he just wants to be able to pay for things himself. I know this to be true since whenever I’m with him he insists on paying for everything. We always agreed, when we visit each other’s countries one would pay for travel and the other pays for food and the hotel cost but the most he has let me pay for before was a meal.

I want this to work and I am being patient because I feel like he is trying his best. I’m just conflicted about whether I’m being too patient and understanding. I’m not sure.

Lila