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    J
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    About a year ago, I ended an abusive relationship with my ex. Following that, I decided that I wasn’t ready for another relationship and wanted to focus on figuring out who I am outside of a relationship. It was working okay for quite some time but then I met someone who seemed to only want something casual, as did I. It turned into a sort of friends with benefits relationship (hardly even friends) and despite me never liking his personality from the beginning, I fell for him and have been stuck ever since.

    I’ve been battling it out with my mind and heart as when I think about the situation logically, everything points to him being wrong for me and for cutting off contact to be the best solution, yet I can’t seem to stop feeling the way that I do. When he contacts me to hook up I can rarely say no because the hookups are enjoyable and I think I’m scared to say no because I’m terrified he will just leave forever as soon as the sex stops. I know the right thing to do is to get myself out of this situation but I have no where near enough emotional strength right now to cut it off because I know it’ll wrench my heart out if I do. It all sounds so silly, falling so hard for someone who never cared for me in the first place and when it’s so easy to see that the relationship is doing more harm than good, but I’m still a mess and I just can’t end it no matter how hard I try. I just don’t know what’s wrong with me and I don’t know what I can do that will hurt the least.

    #287955
    Anonymous
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    Dear J:

    About a year ago you ended an abusive relationship and decided that you weren’t “ready for another relationship”, but you needed another relationship. It often is the case that we are not ready for something but need it anyway.

    You met a man who wanted something casual, aka sex, I suppose and you are now in a “friends with benefits relationship” without the friends part (“hardly even friends”). So it is a “benefits relationship” only. Here is your benefit: “the hookups are enjoyable”.

    But the joy doesn’t last between the hookups, being terrified (“I’m terrified he will just leave forever as soon as the sex stops”)  is not joyful. I think you are stuck because you are afraid that ending this relationship will wrench your heart out, like you stated yourself.

    “It all sounds so silly”- not  to me. Fear is not silly, in my mind. It is a powerful emotion.

    Why don’t you talk to him, share with him what you shared here, or did you?

    anita

    #287957
    Inky
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    Hi J,

    I think we as a society are so “touch starved” and lack close relationships (lovers, friendships, family, etc.) that we will take ANYTHING.

    One (possible???) way to keep this guy (if you’d even want to???) is to get him used to seeing you WITHOUT having sex. Maybe every other hookup something happens: you have a headache (so he has to take care of you), your friend has a crisis (so he gets to help be a hero in your world), you get drunk and fall asleep with your clothes on.

    Meanwhile, convince yourself that you are, in fact, a catch. Go out on a lot of dates. Let this guy know you are dating other people but HE (lucky dog!) is the only one you are currently sleeping with! (Maybe he’ll get competitive when he sees flowers from another guy in your kitchen, etc.)

    Get your hair and nails done. Get a massage. Play with the kittens at the animal shelter. This is so your body is not as touch starved.

    Finally, visit your girlfriends and relatives THAT MATTER. Even if they live hundreds of miles away, visit them for that connection of Being Known.

    Good Luck!

    Inky

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