Josh,

I read your original post but not the following conversation. Here is what I want to say:

– Thank you soooo much for sharing your experience. You have no idea the number of people you will help by sharing your vulnerability. Self improvement is like this – two steps forward one step back. You have made a huge huge progress in these 2 years and it’s so clear from your insights and self reflection.

But you are also a human and you did get attached and that’s very normal. I have been there, I have been hard on myself and looking back I have learnt something about myself from those dates. Some self improvement happens in silo/ as solo and some happens through people experiences. Frankly, there is some self improvement there for the girl too in the way she disappeared, coz she is human too.

I am learning to accept myself even when I am not perfect in my self improvement journey. As my therapist says, being hard on myself is a part of the journey too…so let’s love and accept ourselves even when we are being hard on ourselves. It’s all okay. You sound like a wonderful person to me, also very wise and thankfully very human.

i hope other members will share more helpful insights with you.

take care,

K