Dear Anita,

This is an excellent point:

until it was no use to rest in relaxation, too fleeting, likely to be disrupted anytime.

The concept of, why even attempt or try?

Your next point is as well.  A reminder that this “jackhammer” doesn’t truly exist in my daily environment anymore.  I am so used to having it around that I subconsciously assume it is there, or perhaps even seek it.  Saying to myself: oh look at this jackhammer or that.  But it is up to me to maintain that calm.  Calm is everything.