Dear Anita,

It is this rushing, this frenzy, that rains on your parade of life every time, everywhere, every day.

Yes it does.

I really like your example about the food.  In fact this is true and I had a not so great relationship with food once I finally lived on my own in my 20s.  I recall having trouble taking my time to eat, and always wondering if i was hungry or full.  Having trouble following natural cues, given that I was frenzied and rushed.

Of course never realizing that it came back from what you delineated perfectly, distress and frenzy at the dinner table since birth.

I notice a trend of always blaming myself for not being able to enjoy normal things or do normal things, eat slowly, or watch an episode of TV without being distracted.  Always rushing, never sinking in.

To add to the matter, I have vivid memories throughout my life of my father attacking me for this exact thing! Go figure.

“CC always rushing and frenzied where is her brain?

Oh look at her always running around foolishly in circles, chasing things

CC doesn’t matter how successful you become, your brain isn’t there – so absent minded

So absent minded, leaving things everywhere, how did she become like this? all of us in the family are so neat and tidy

you think you are doing all the right things and so good, but you can’t even keep your room clean, what is that?