Anita,

I’m trying to understand why I wake up sometimes and feel exhausted.  All day I’m irritable and occasional feel like it’s hard to pronounce words and sometimes my pronunciation comes out wrong.  This happened Saturday.  Unfortunately I had my kids and I felt like I was irritable in the morning.  I struggled and things got better in the afternoon it was just a very long day.   Sunday I pretty much just went to the library and watched TV and didn’t talk to anyone.  I feel better.

I feel like I had above average anxiety last week.  Mostly because I’m sitting next to K.  I feel like I have unlimited access to him with him being so close by.  And as a person with problems with addiction, unlimited access is not a good thing.  I’m at a loss if I talked to him too much or seemed too loud.  I’m worried that I came across odd or “too much.”   I know we set up some ground rules Friday and he never reached out to me via text over the weekend which I think is a very good thing based on my mood at that time.

This feeling of worrying that I did too much or said too much gets really old.  I know that all I can do is focus on doing the best thing now and in the future but it really sucks worrying what others think.

Lindsey