Hello Anita

your last post made me smile. Miracles do happen and I’m very happy it happened to someone as nice as you.
I have one of my sad days today. I’ve spent all weekend alone and I did go to the shops, spoke to mom but I am alone. It’s not even that. I always feel – why do people take advantage of my niceness? Just cos I’m not a bitch and I’m usually nice cos I am a decent person!

My ex husband behaved as badly as he did cos he knew it was my second marriage and I had no family here. He knew how he was behaving but he still behaved that way cos he had the upper had. The man I met on the dating site last year said he only wanted to be friends with benefits in not as many words. Cos that’s what I deserved I guess. Why does no one ever offer me more? I’m not the pushy, aggressive kind who asks for more. I try to be helpful, affectionate, supportive.  When I leave, then they realise what they’ve lost. Someone loyal and very supportive. But why does no one ever realise that when they meet me?

Even in my professional life – I wasn’t supposed to travel as often in this job but it’s become like that. When I applied for the job, it was supposed to be in London. And I took it as I didn’t have a choice after 11 months of unemployment. But even they hired me as I’m single and don’t have children ( they did ask me about it). Why do people take advantage of good, decent people? Why do I never get anything in return? Or anyone doing anything nice for me? Should I change myself?