Happy New Year Anita!

Yes I start my 2nd chapter here in Florida with yet again a car full of things! Is this really happening? I don’t know how I got out of bed this morning but I’m at a Starbucks working. I feel like dying I’m in so much emotional pain but I have hopes of healing. I’m not sure how or what to do with this pain. It hurts so bad at times. I felt my system go from loving and complassion to self hate and misery. It is sad. Sad to know many people face this. As well as myself. If we could all just be more loving to each other. Pondering life and what to do and how to keep my mind right when it fights me tooth and nail to old patterns. A lifelong so it’s much stronger than my new patterns I assume. Trying my best and advocating for myself.