Dear Gaia:

When I answered you above, I didn’t think about school, but I clearly remember not being part of any cool group, being ignored. I have a memory of talking to a girl in high school and her turning her head to someone else, to others as if I didn’t say anything, as if I wasn’t there. Oh, yes, the rage, the intense anger, and yet, nothing- I said nothing, and it happened again and again, carrying all that anger but nowhere to express it, no one to tell, not even imagining anyone wanting to help me, anyone who could help me. The feeling was of complete isolation, meaning, being troubled and no one to help me, no such option.

anita