I definitely know I’m making some progress on perspective and I’m changing internally, even if it’s not clear on the outside. May I ask what kind of change have you noticed, especially on regard of mental health?

Your cringiness is most acute in social situations, while interacting with others, not connected to physical touching others, or being touched by others, but overall social interactions with others. This is why you like to be alone. You feel very heavy because issues and negative feelings that are magnified, are bigger and therefore heavier

I like your new found principle on myself, the Magnifying Glass, because it’s accurate about my experience with my mother, a least it is a significant amount of the time. I’d like to add something on my social situation: my sense of cringiness or uncomfortableness is also due to how much social situation and interpersonal connections are linked to something bad and feeling bad, in my mind. I’ve felt all kinds of shitty feelings, I’ve experienced all kinds of unpleasing situations, while with others, I’ve felt like nothing, or like shit, while with others, so there’s a bad link in my mind that only gets stronger with time.

learn emotional regulation skills. This is a well known and developed concept in psychotherapy. Because everyone magnifies issues and negative feelings from time to time, if not a lot of the time. (You happen to be on the more extreme part of the spectrum, magnifying a whole lot, more than most, seems to me

It’s strange, because on the outside you wouldn’t say I am on the extreme part of emotional spectrum. People would say I’m the stoic one, I’ve also beaten myself a lot of time for not considering myself to be caring, or sensitive, or emotionally expressive enough like certain people, but definitely ERS is something I’m going to look up and tell you if and how it works for me, just like the skill of showing myself empathy instead of hatred when I fall into my habits.