I also achieved a new insight: that talking about myself so in depth like I’m doing in this thread just plain terrifies me. I used to think that it would only feel like this in case I would talk with my mom or other certain people but now I realize it’s terrifying in whatever case. That’s another reason I don’t always like to talk with psychotherapists cause opening myself like this is scary and I fear other people responses and opinions, even yours sometimes (not that you scare me, it’s how I feel about everyone in general)