Dear Gaia:

I want you to heal and become healthier and healthier. For this purpose I must say this: do not act on your anger by doing anything illegal that will make you end up in jail. Don’t physically harm an animal or human. If you do that, you will not heal, and instead, you will get even sicker in jail. As bad as life has been and still is for you, it can get worse. So do not express your anger aggressively against another by physically harming another.

I understand your great frustration. I was very angry myself for many, many years. Crazy- angry: I remember being on a bus and cursing the driver as I exited the bus, loud enough for the driver to hear, and for no reason, meaning, the driver did nothing to me. I felt very freaky, but my goodness, I was so angry, it just came out.

You do need to express your anger, only not in a way that will lead you to jail. But no doubt, your anger needs to be expressed, it has been there for way too long and intensely. It is a powerful force, this anger, and it needs to get out. How, I don’t know. How about this: pick up a real life person that you are angry at and tell that person so. It is not illegal to talk, so tell them so, sound angry, say angry words, express yourself.

What do you think?

anita

Edit: I just read your recent second post, regarding you being confused whether a particular person really hurt you or not, and therefore if your anger at the person is justified or not (if I understand correctly). Connecting your second post with my suggestion above, you can tell me about a particular person, what he or she did to you, and I can give you my thoughts about whether your anger at that person is justified.