@genie @michelle thank you for your continued support.

@doseofreality last week if I had read your post I would have felt hard done by and aggrieved. I was so intoxicated by the booze and overwhelming emotions that the sensitivity in me would have made me go down the self pity route and accused you of lacking any sympathy. I would have denied the weight your words and refused to see the true intention behind it.

Today I feel humbled. Last week I contemplated suicide over a heartbreak, I feel absolutely ashamed and your words have really spoken to me. You are right we are in the midst of scary situation which should make us see what is good and what isn’t. People are dying. It is time for gratitude and change in our choices and attitudes. If I was to die tomorrow would I be happy? No. If I can’t be out there like the key workers making a difference. Then the least I can do is work on myself to appreciate the life given and let go of what was. Thank you. Thank you. I don’t want to be ignorant and part of those who choose to remain the same after all this is over. My choice is to live life with a renewed sense of hope and make better life choices. In the grand scheme of it all; there are children who have died and parents who will continue to strive for their other children and family. There are children who are orphans and still prosper because they have gratitude. Something we have all lost in a world full of instant gratification. My ex leaving me is nothing in comparison. To wallow in pity and sadness and refuse to live life with the health I have is selfish. I can achieve happiness for myself by firstly being content with what I have right now. Then making better decisions in the future. Thank you.