I’m afraid I can’t suggest any videos or the like as I have never encountered any.

Isn’t distrust an emotion? You seem to feel that a lot from what you have described here. You also seem to feel a lot of fear, based on the what you describe as not wanting to be vulnerable.

I say the above not to suggest you don’t have a problem with emotions, just to suggest that you might not be as far removed from experiencing them as you think you are.

I wonder if you are a low key sort of person who isn’t given to big highs or massive lows? Are you just the mellow sort?

I know you are against professional help, but here is my two cents on that. I have had two types of therapy and I didn’t feel particularly vulnerable. It was sort of the opposite in fact. Therapists are just strangers that you pay. They form a professional relationship with you which has very clear and defined boundaries. It’s probably the least vulnerable position in which you can open your heart to a person or set of ideas.

What is it that you think you are missing out on and what do you hope to achieve if you do start experiencing emotions?

I hope you find a solution Graham.