okay, i know its not the end of the world but i feel im losing an opportunity and that ill never be in love agin or nobody will ever love me again, it hurts really bad i wish i could just stop the feelng entirly, i feel like im moving on while still kinda being with him. i feel free knowing we rent together and feel like the handcuffs of anxiety and ear have been cut lose. but then theres the sde that tells me im making a mistake and i know that he isnt immature so he doesnt let the relationship control his whole life, so when it ends hell continue his life and be happy that im happy, but i now that ill be stuck thinking that i made a mistake, and get super depressed, thats why werekinda inbetween being together and not, because thats what my thoughts reflect exactly, anita, this isnt about me anymore, its just about making the right decision, this has been going on for so long that im beggining to think that either way that i go, il still be happy, but the feeling that  was getting, was an awful feeling, i hate that feeling, i wish  could just make it go away, this has happend to a lot of girls. so it may just be that they arent the right person for you. but i dont want to leave him and fall in love with some no god asshole. i want to be in love with the guy that treats me rught, and loves me aswell, i just want a fix, ananswer, a soulution, but i know ill only find that within myself, whuch sucks. because if i could, i wouldnt be writing to you now, this is probably the most uncertain ive ever been, im not sure what to do, when i talk to my dad he tells me the same things you do  but i still get that uncertain feeling thats taking ver my relationship, and i dont want to take time because thatll only make us grow apart. u g h. these certai thoughts have been ALL ive thought about for going on three weeks. i just want it to end. i want to be with him but not with all this uncontrollable emotion, its just making me think its not meant to be, but yeah, i dont panic anymore, i just feel this uncertain sad feeling, and your right it feels alot better than panicing, so whats the next step, give up, or dont. sorry about spelling mistakes or jumbling up my words but i just tend to do that