Dear gamer:

“I haven’t properly heard his explanation as to why he felt unsure in the first place, what made him ‘stuck in the middle’, what made him change his mind.. After I find those things out, I can feel some type of peace in my heart and move forward whether or not this will work  out”-

– I doubt that he will be able to give you an adequate explanation. More likely he will be guessing as to reasons, and not presenting to you an accurate picture of what went on before/ what will be going on when he speaks to you.

Clarity is not likely to come from him.

What is clear is that the title of your thread is “Heartbroken”- this is how you’ve been feeling for a while in context of  your relationship with him, and also, clear to me, is that you shouldn’t wait heartbroken for him to adequately explains things to you (I don’t think he can).

I think that you are holding on to how you felt with him before, early on, waiting to feel that way again. Better you let go of those good memories with him, accepting them as something in your past. Then clear your mind and heart so to look forward to a better future later, with someone else.

anita