Dear anita,

I’ve been thinking about seeing a psychologist who practices hypnosis. A year or two ago, I met someone like that and it was a strange experience. I was definitely hypnotized. And I remember feeling very good for the rest of the evening. I felt confident and strong. It was amazing! But somehow, I remember feeling uneasy being hyponotized because I could feel that I was giving control the psychologist some control over me. Like letting go of controling things.

I might try to see this psychologist again. Hypnosis may be what I need. And in the process, I may learn to let go of some things in my life.

Concerning my flat, I have to admit that I am a bit disappointed. My neighbours often make too much noise and it can be hard to focus on studying. Unfortunately, libraries are still closed because of the virus so I have to study at my place. I felt lonely the first two days but the feeling got away. I don’t feel at ease in this new place. I want to give it a try for a few more weeks. And if I don’t like it, I can always come back to my parents’ home. This is not really a flat, it’s a room. So I have to go outside my room to take a shower or to go to the toilet. Living in Paris is very expensive and with what I earn and my parents’ help, that’s all I can get. I don’t want to complain because I can always choose to come back to my parents (which is not as bad as I thought haha). It’s actually a very interesting experience whether it will last or not. I realize that I can manage being alone pretty well !

Concerning my love life, I want to stop having a spot in my mind that always think about being in a relationship. I know it can ruin some potential frienships with girls (like with D). And I feel this way to think is rather unsane and energy costing. I want to focus on the two things I love the most (besides people) : my studies and music !

By the way, I’ve started to listen to more joyful songs and it really helps lifting up my mood !

Daniel