Dear anita,

thanks for your input!

My father’s behaviors have impacted my self-esteem. But I still would like to not see things in a very black and white way of good person and bad person. I know that he was not the best at parenting…

Yes, his words and punishments hurt my feelings. Yes, he was not qualified to determine if my behaviors were right or wrong. I agree with you there.

I wish that I had not grown up to be such a confused person and would have become more assertive. At the moment I am thinking of challenging myself more to step out of my comfort zone, to train my social competencies more. But with Corona, the possibilities are limited.

It would be nice to meet new people and learn to be in a group. Maybe find some friends. But when it comes to romantic relationships, I think I still have to work on myself more.

Today I did not get much done when it comes to accountability. Tomorrow I will have to try again.