@Jay2023

Smack on the wrist for you! I’m just joking. What feeling triggered you to look? You were doing quite well. Was it pure curiosity that was too much, if so understandable but upon learning that information do you feel you want to be with her again?

You’re right you two are not in any form of relationship so you should be focusing on you now. Who knows what’s happened. It could have been rebound, he could be her fwb etc but without asking her you’re just letting those obsessive scenarios or thoughts eat you up.

The thing is Jay,  do you really believe she’s good for you? I know you enjoyed a physical romance but scratch beneath the surface there wasn’t much else. You need to keep reminding yourself of that.

As a person she has shown no care for your feelings throughout your relationship. Hasn’t supported you in your lows or given you the encouragement to gain emotional strength. Yet you’re allowing her to have such a grip over you emotionally. The medication like you said will not stop you making the bad choices. It will just take the edge off the feelings that arise. Only you can have the power to steer this the way you should.

I feel your pain, I really do. As much as i don’t want to see you get hurt, I don’t think you have closure, I don’t think you want to let go. So maybe you need to learn the hard way? Or maybe you just need to have a good heart to heart with her like I did with my ex.

Are you feeling lonely? Missing company? Also Jay always be honest on here we will never judge you. Will give you an honest opinion but the choices are your own at the end of the day. You should be able to spill without feeling judged, that’s the point of anonymity on forums.