@Jay2023 Damn I was meant to press reply and ended up clicking report. I do apologise. @Sammy will have a field day!

Are you sure it’s nothing like work, financial or other stress contributing?

If it is just the picture update. Don’t be so hard on yourself, people make far worse mistakes. Resolve not to be sucked back in. She doesn’t care about you mate if she is selfish enough to insert herself both figuratively and literally to meet her needs whilst having no emotional awareness of the impact it could have on you by using you as a crutch and sex.

If her relationship has gone pear shaped and she doesn’t have option 1,2,3 lined up don’t be surprised if she comes around again to her “safe bet” – you. But build your self worth and esteem to know better this time. That’s the only bombshell left so if you prepare mentally you’ll be ready. Sammy is far too empathetic about her in this situation in my opinion, I honestly think being a guy myself your memories are clouded by the physical aspect you enjoyed, I understand that entirely and getting hooked!

What you’ll understand in your own time is if this woman had shown you support, uplifted you during difficulties,  shown kindness and care (like you did for her) then finding it difficult to cut all ties is expected because you grow to care about the person. Naturally you want to remain a part of their life in some form. But she only appears to want to be in your life for the selfish reasons. Keep reminding and drilling that fact home.

Outdoor restaurants are open, go for a meal, do some shopping and plan activities to keep tou stimulated. Talk to other people, reconnect with friends you’ve not seen or spoken because of the pandemic, the loneliness will only grow if you isolate yourself or become introverted. Reach out to people yourself, it doesn’t have to always be the other way around. You’ll see positive changes before you know it.