I will try my best, I am focusing my heart and soul on all things I enjoy. Spending some parts of my savings on things that I have wanted for a long time but I kept denying myself all of it thinking one day I will get them.

I keep telling everyone that are you expecting that you will get a re-do of your life that you keep denying yourself happiness and here I am doing the same thing every time I am sad and stuck.

Time to apply it to me. I am still feeling fear in terms of letting people too close. But I think it will eventually go away.

As for overthinking about him, His name is the commonest name in my country so even when I switch the overthinking mode off, something or the other reminds me of him but I know it will happen only for sometime ……. and then it will be okay, right?