@Jay2023 sometimes its easier to open up to strangers. They will not feel as frustrated or disappointed as your loved ones do so it removes that pressure. As men we don’t really have the same support bubble women are blessed with either so like you I’m grateful for this thread.

Women also get compliments left right and centre to boost their esteem. Whereas as a lad you’re lucky if you hear it once a year ahaha. But that’s what I love about ‘B’ she’s my biggest supporter and really hypes me.

I think what you described is what I felt for a long time too. That’s loneliness. You sound like a very sociable human being who desires deep connection. Have you never had that deep connect on a platonic level ?

Even though your relationship with that person ended it’s just the beginning of who you want to be. You deserve a better love, and you know you do and that’s essential in moving forward.

Before I met ‘B’ I didn’t know who I was, what I wanted. It’s like she was an anchor who helped steady me and open my eyes. At first I wasn’t even romantic attracted to her. Physically yes but the love came later. I think seeking an emotional connection is what you need and a person who doesn’t judge you and just gets you. You need someone who is comforting. I think with time you’ll find what you deserve and you’ll look back and realise what you had wasn’t anywhere close.

If you don’t mind me asking what issues do you need to explore with a therapist?

Maybe one of us might have a shared experience. I also agree from my communication with you, you have a goodness in you mate. For one you don’t seek one night stands to fill voids. You want the real thing. You want true companionship. I hope with our help and therapy you get it bro.