Hi, It’s been few days and in these few days, I tried hard to keep myself concentrated on myself and my work. But it isn’t working anymore. I did things I like, I am getting ideas, I feel otherwise light and happy within but there still remains a void. It shouldn’t be but every few hours it hits me.

I haven’t been sleeping well. It has been more than a week now. I sleep by 4-5 am when I have to work in the morning. It makes me feel bad about things. But today was extreme because I took half a day off to rest a little. Just after a weekend. I feel mentally drained and tired.

It sometimes feels like it has been years since we broke up when it has only been a month. I feel drained energetically to that point.

My interaction with my family is at minimum, I work but I know I can work harder, and yet…

I don’t understand my own thoughts and what exactly am I doing

Some days I feel I will like someone healthy to be a part of my life but then I question if I am healthy? (mentally)

Should I be even affected by all this the way I am?

I tried hard to not come back here and deal with everything on my own but I feel it isn’t working anymore…