Dear Anita,

I had been dating before, but i had been taught to keep the limit and i kept it to 38 years old. Recently at the age of 38 i am afraid it is too late to have normal healthy baby; for the sake of the future baby, i should try to overcome the social rule to have sex before marriage. I thought the guy is sure to be my husband,as i have been looking for a single guy for too long (at my age there are hardly anyone). At that time i just think of that. And i want to be a mother so much, i even think single mom is ok. I admire those who chose to be single mom. They dare to live their life. We planned about wedding ceremony when the break up happened, which made me shocked and did not know what to do next. I know at this age i should be responsible for my life, but i feel not ok. I am afraid social norm will not accept my immature thought and deed. i still feel ashamed and guilt, as i could not controlled myself well at that time to let that happened. I know i cannot turn back the time but i am quite not confident as previous to begin any new relationship