Thank you Sarah,

I’m happy to hear you are better now. It feels good to hear that there is hope, and possibilities to get “healed”.

They are doing a full health checkup and diagnostic scan of my entire body including heart, kidney, liver, lung to assess my current health status and to screen me to know if I have any apparent warning signs or if any abnormalities lying inside my body.

On Thursday, they will do a chemical imbalance check of the brain to determine if I have excessive or insufficient chemicals(neurotransmitters).

I have put the journaling on hold for now. I need to take some time off and change of focus. I’m just afraid of everything. Nothing makes sense, and at the moment I don’t have any “why”. I’m just “walking” around without any reason and no destination. Sometimes I just want to end it, but then I think about my mother, and all the struggle and pain she has endured, and the pain and guilt I will give my family. Maybe that’s my “why”.