Dear TeaK,

I have returned home. I feel dead inside. I’m lonely and depressed. I feel useless and full of fears. Nothing makes sense. After my last session, I’m stuck in my past. I miss everything and everyone from when I was a kid.  My family, my friends, my classmates, my teachers, my relatives, the good times. I miss being young and full of life. I can’t cope with all the changes.

I cry all the time, even when out of tears. I have trouble with breathing, I “choke” every other minute.

My mother’s health is not good, she has had several breakdowns since I’ve been away for medical checkups. She is struggling because of me. She’s feeling guilty and is blaming herself. I’m ruining her. I just want to hug her and ask for forgiveness and tell her how much I love her.