Dear TeaK,

My Serotonin and Dopamine levels were really low, while Norepinephrine and Glutamate were off the chart(really high levels). I will have to take medication but only under supervision. As my Melatonin levels are also very low, I have been subscribed Melatonin dietary suplements, but only in low doses. I must also increase my vitamin B(B9 and B12) and vitamin D intake and additionally increase my omega-3 intake. Electroconvulsive therapy is also an option, but at the moment that’s not considered. My blood test shows that I have Anemia and am at high risk of Diabetes 2. My Creatinine and Blood Urea Nitrogen levels were sub-par, and I have inflammation in my liver.

In my session with my therapist, we went through my journals and all the letters I had written(I only managed to write letters to my vulnerable inner child and to my mother). As I had several breakdowns and had anxiety attacks, the session was very time and energy-consuming. I was drained, empty, and without any motivation. We had a “coping” session, where all incidents from my childhood were addressed and all thoughts and feelings were noted down and listed. For each negative incident, I had to note down a positive incident. This session was to remind me that not everything from my past was negative and awful and to remind and feed my subconscious mind with positive memories. According to my therapist, the human mind has a limited memory space, hence daily affirmations and focusing more on the positive and good things in life can slowly diminish the negative thoughts.