Thank you,

I’m working on my self-confidence and my inner child by positive affirmations.

But the mornings, when I wake up and when everything is still. When I can only feel my heartbeat and breath, are the worst. My mind is going on overdrive, and negative thoughts and feelings are at worst. It’s unbearable and killing me. I don’t know how to cope with these intense feelings. I hyperventilate, I get super depressed and I’m on the edge of a breakdown. I feel like I’m dying!! My psychiatrist claims it’s due to a chemical imbalance in the brain, but why do they think medications will solve everything?! If there is a magic pill that can cure and heal my brain, why haven’t they given it to me earlier? I’m going crazy, I don’t know what to do. I just don’t want to be alone, I don’t want to die alone. The loneliness and emptiness are killing me.

I’m sorry that I’m spewing so much negativity. I just feel lost.