Today, I cried uncontrollably for 4hours. I miss my mother. I’m all alone, I feel useless and unwanted.

I’m anxious about everything and are full of fear. I can’t see any future for myself, the pain of just existing without any reason or meaning or any passion is unbearable. I just wish I could just close my eyes and disappear!! I wish I never existed, never lived, never were born. I can’t remember the last time I was happy, or smiled or had a peaceful moment. I’m empty, completely empty inside. I don’t know how to cope with this!