dear anita,

the exact same thing has been happening to me. I have suffered with anxiety and ptsd most of my life, and I have never thought of a girl in this way before. My feelings started on the 26th September, the day I started my period… I started to find everyone attractive, absolutely everyone, because of this I started overthinking a lot, I was thinking, what if I’m bisexual? what if I’m a lesbian? these thoughts were really disturbing me, because as I said before, I’ve never felt this way before, my hormones were all over the place during my period this time round. anyways, I was really stressing and panicking about it, it got to the point I couldn’t eat, couldn’t drink anything and I couldn’t sleep either, I constantly needed reassurance and I couldn’t look at any women on social media because I’d feel so nervous, I still feel the exact same now, the thought of being bisexual really bothers me and makes me really scared, because I really really do not want to be bisexual or a lesbian, it’s gotten to the point where I’m praying to god and saying I’ll do anything not to be bisexual… these thoughts continued after my period finished 2 weeks ago, but it’s like it’s on my mind 24/7. If I’m doing something to occupy myself, it will settle down, but if not all the emotions just come back. I am seeing a therapist for my anxiety as I had EMDR therapy, and the last time I had the EMDR therapy, nothing about me being bisexual came out, he said it’s completely normal and it’s a stage everyone goes through in life, I feel like the more I think about it the worse it gets. I’m doing all these quizzes to see if I’m bisexual, constantly needing reassurance that I’m not and it’s really getting to me, my feelings just changed overnight, I don’t know if it’s hormonal or anything but I just want to feel myself again it’s really ruining my life, I’ve never had these thoughts before they’re so frightening, I’m only 15 years old myself so it could be to do with puberty, then a few days ago I was researching and google said I could be a lesbian, bare in mind I was still attracted to boys, as soon as I saw those words my body went into meltdown and I was thinking I was a lesbian, I thought about it that much that I stopped finding boys as attractive as I used to, that part has sort of settled down now but I’ve still got a fear what if im a lesbian also, I just really really do not want to be either, it terrifies me. I’m really sorry for bothering you, if anyone has any advice on what to do then please let me know, I just want this feeling gone for good and to feel my happy self again:( have a good day guys x