Anita,

Thank you so much!  I hope you had a Merry Christmas and well and are looking forward to the New Year.  Christmas flew by and the kids enjoyed their presents. They are currently in Florida until January 2nd and then school starts back on January 3rd.

I am waiting to hear back from the mediator so that we can sign all the paperwork and be done-that is a relief.

I have something to share with you.  I’m going to try and not be graphic because it deals with sex.  I also hope it is ok to talk about it on this forum.  If not just let me know.

Things have been going ok with Jason.  However, last night we had dinner and went back to his house and were talking at the table. We went over to the couch and he looked at me and said we need to have an adult conversation. I was taken off guard by this because I’ve never had anyone phrase it like that or ask pointed questions contraceptives and other things.  i was on auto pilot during the conversation.

He made a comment and I said wait-are you saying we are going to have sex soon?  He goes well yeah. I started to feel pressured right away. I said “but I don’t want to have sex right now.  Are you going to get annoyed if we don’t have sex in a few weeks?  I have no idea when I will be ready.”  He did not confirm he would get annoyed but…..we were doing some things and he asked repeadly to take off an item of clothing and I said no.    we were on the couch in the living room.  People sit on the couch.  I don’t think he is thinking I really like this girl I want to move forward.  I also think he is trying to CONTROL THE SIUTATION.  WE HAVE SEX ON HIS TERMS AND WHEN.

Number one-I’ve got to have a conversation with him about all this because I was very caught off guard.  I want to have the conversation right now but I delete his phone number after we text so I am not texting or going back over conversations.  Also this is not a conversation to be had on the phone or via text.  So now I have to wait.

Am i overrating? I’m not sure.  I’m disappointed but think to an extent I put myself in the situation by doing things with him. But isn’t that normal when you have gone out with someone 5 or 6 times?  I don’t know what to do.  I don’t want to just sit here on my computer all day thinking about it.  I’m really disappointed in general.

Lindsey