Dear Zeha:

“Hi anita Thank you for your kind advice. But I cannot grasp what are you trying to convey here… Do I need to think practical or follow my instinct/gut here?” –

– You are welcome. I am suggesting that you follow your instinct/ gut (emotions) and practical thinking: both, not one or the other.

“Are you suggesting me to follow my heart or my family?” – my instinct/ gut answer is that you follow your heart, but my practical thinking goes like this: if you are living with your family, and your family is going to give you trouble for following your heart, then you will not have the peaceful life that you want so much (“I want to have a peaceful and happy life. I just want to live my life as I want without anxiety, guilt and regret“).

You wrote: “I don’t have the mindset to study anymore. I am afraid that if I continue this, I might be exhaust myself until I cannot cope with it“, and “I’m scared that I might be disappointment/hurt/break my mother’s trust on me. I think I will crash her dream knowing that she wants to see all her daughter wants to be a graduate person” – this means that you are conflicted, on one hand you really want to quit your studies, but on the other hand, you are afraid to hurt your mother. This conflict needs to be resolved. Maybe, if you talk to your mother and explain to her how much you want to quit your studies, and how much you want to pursue a career as a Flight Attendant (formerly called Stewardess), maybe she will change her mind and support you in quitting your studies.

the balance career. com: “The first step in becoming a flight attendant is to apply for a position with an airline… Airlines require job applicants to have at least a high-school or equivalency (GED) diploma. However, many will only hire candidates who have taken college classes or who have an associate or bachelor’s degree. Degrees that will prepare you especially well include hospitality, communication, tourism, and public relations.  Employers often prefer job candidates who have work experience in a related field. If you want to become a flight attendant, consider gaining relevant experience in customer service by working in a hotel, resort, or restaurant”.

There is more in that website that may help you figure out how practical it would be for you to pursue this career. With practical knowledge, you will have a better chance to convince your mother/ family that this career is right for you.

anita