Dear Anita

I am seeing Jason tonight at his home. I am not sure what to say about these issues. Knowing his personality he will listen but I think his thoughts are “I like things how they currently are.” We do show pictures of our kids to each other and talk about them. His facebook contains pictures of him and his family only.  He shared that he has never posted a picture of himself and someone else he is dating (he did post 1 picture of us on a hike in May but I brought it up).  He is more of a private person.

I agree with you about the billing for half of the dating expenses but I’m not sure how that works or how much/when I should pay.  He did not press for the $250 yesterday when I asked about it- he may not at all.  I think he knew the cottage was not great.

I do have a problem with him taking pot gummies during the hiking trip.  He pressed me to take one and I said no.  When he asked multiple times my answer of no was assertive and probably annoyed sounding and he didn’t ask again.

In addition – i guess this would be a side note not related- I have serious body image issues.  We were at the lake during and after the hike on Saturday and there were a few women that looked really good in bathing suits.  While I didn’t think about him looking at the women or being jealous that he was looking I continued to feel bad about myself. I typically do not study my body in the mirror and  avoid the mirror if I am not wearing clothes.  This has always been an issue of mine and has gotten worse as I’ve gotten older and had children- I’m 43.  There are all those self-help and self-esteems books etc on that everywhere and they don’t make a difference.

Lindsey