Dear Anita,

How was your weekend?

Hmm I think you’re right I do have to work on that since everything isn’t in our hands. I do need to see the good progress that I am making so I can build up my confidence

About believing in your inherent worth:
So I think more or less has to do with my Childhood Emotional Neglect (CEN) like lot of people my parents didn’t knew my emotional needs and they did what they thought is right for me. They just wanted to protect me so…
So I’ve dealt with very Low self-esteem, self-compassion and self-confidence but I think it’s lot better than before Although I did built up kind of Insecure-avoidant attachment pattern which I’m still working on
Another thing is that in my teenage years I was very good in education area so they really had high hopes for me so I felt pressure, got really anxious, chosen wrong college course and eventually drop out from college because I knew I didn’t liked it and started my professional career earlier without even bachelor’s because I had good tech skills even at that time. And I’m living on my own since 16 years of age. And that time my parents were supportive of my decision, and they are still supportive.. It was a bad decision to start profession journey without bachelors’ I realized that so I started my bachelor’s as a distance student and full-time job…
But still they (Also me) want a good stability at this age which I’m not there yet. Even though I should be and I’m trying
Maybe that’s why I’m not feeling my worth?
Sorry if it’s too much info or maybe not really relevant… But I just felt like saying it so